Coming home...

Wow, it’s been over a year since I’ve been here last…eish! I have truly let things slide…. I apologize. Things have been quite hectic but this prodigal daughter wants to come back home to blogville. So can I come in? Thanks!!!

So to update you guys, since my hiatus I have graduated medical school and gotten married.!!! YUP, All within a year of being away and I can I tell you I've learned so much. My coming back to blogsville is for a reason…. Yes I did miss blogging, but the reason is a bit bigger than that.
When I got married, I rushed on to blogsville hoping to find another blogger that was in the same condition….You know, Born again, Nigerian, young and newlywed. I was hoping to find someone who had gone through, or was going through what I was so I could relate and learn from her life…..unfortunately, just as there aren’t that many around me physically, there aren’t that many who fit that bill in blogsville (or least that I have been able to find). Soooooooo… I have decided to make the first step and blog about what I am learning so far in this new chapter of my life; hopefully it will bless someone.
Stay tuned folks....

Luke 15 vs 20: So he returned home to his father. And while he was still a long distance away, his father saw him coming. Filled with love and compassion, he ran to his son, embraced him, and kissed him.



…musings from atop the potter’s wheel

Angel of the Lord....

The Lord’s my Shepherd, I have everything I need.
Mercy and love follow me.
Though I walk through the dark valley of death, I will
Not be afraid for He’s here.

The Lord’s my refuge, no evil can come near me,
Dwelling in His secret place.
I put my trust in Him, He is my shield, I will
Let His peace rule in my heart.

(Chorus)
Surely, the Angel of the Lord is around me.
I have no cause to fear, my God will not forsake me.
I am His child, no enemy can touch me.
I will not die but live, to tell what He has done.

He has ransomed me, He gave me all authority,
Power, love and a sound mind.
Strong in the Lord and the power of His might, I will
Put on His armour and stand.

(Chorus)
Surely, the Angel of the Lord is around me.
I have no cause to fear, my God will not forsake me.
I am my Father's child, no enemy can touch me.
I will not die but live, to tell what He has done.


(Amen)

...musings from atop the potter's wheel

...and the truth shall set me free

I am of worth...
No matter what the lies my generation is made to believe.
I am of value...
Not because of my accomplishments, my beauty or education
I am fulfilled
Completely in Jesus Christ.

All I want, all I desire, who I was made to be is found at the foot of the cross.

The Lord, maker of the universe, eni to te sanma bi eni saw it fit to make me. He is not a maker of worthless things, he desired me that’s why he made me. “The LORD hath called me from the womb; from the bowels of my mother hath he made mention of my name” (Isaiah 49 v 1). You were the one who called my name and “…knit me together in my mother’s womb” (Psalm 139 v 13). It was of your doing, you weren’t bored or looking for a pet project. You desired me into existence.

No matter my surroundings or how the world makes me feel, help me to remember “…for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvelous are thy works…” (Psalm 139 v 14) nothing can change that or take that away. I am precious to you father; so precious that you have me “…carved in the palms of your hands and my walls are continually before thee” (Isaiah 49 v 13). This world will fade away and everything it holds. No matter how unstable life is, you are “…my rock and my salvation; my defense; I shall not be greatly moved” (psalm 62 v2).

Now, I seek you Lord and the intentions you have for my life. Let my will be overshadowed by yours. Teach me, minister to me and make me sensitive to the beckoning of the Holy Spirit. Be the “…lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path” (psalm 119 v105). Show me what you desire of me and let me not be lost from you. Help me love the Lord [my] God with all [my] heart, and with all [my] soul, and with all [my] mind (Matthew 22 v37).

“Now unto him that is able to keep [me] from falling, and to present [me] faultless before the presence of his glory with exceeding joy…” (Jude 1 v 24) I commit my life.

...musings from atop the potters wheel.

Building Jesus in me...

This song was a gift from someone dear to me and it represents my heart cry; what i truly desire of my life. It is entitled "Building Jesus in me" and it is by Colin Stoodley

I am the vessel you have chosen
Though there’s weakness deep within.
You have made me more than conqueror
I’m forgiven of my sins.

Chorus
Holy spirit, Holy spirit
Keep on building Jesus in me
Holy spirit, Holy spirit
Keep on building Jesus in me

Lord my mind needs Your renewing
Keeping out all doubt and fear
Overcoming all my weakness
By Your Spirit I'm brought near

Change the way I think and feel Lord
Mould the attitudes in me
I would mirror all Your living
A reflection all may see



May it be so oh lord....



...musings from atop the potter's wheel

God is in my orange...

Yes I said it...God is in my orange!!!
I bought two oranges for a $1 at the local grocer’s and dumped it in my book bag. I was supposed to eat it for lunch but never got a chance so I carried it home and back to the hospital the next day. Well again, I didn’t get a chance to eat it, but on my way home, I remembered them and peeled one. As I popped the first piece in my mouth, I shouted BLESS THE NAME OF THE LORD. HOW CAN THE WORLD SAY THERE IS NO GOD, AND THAT BY CHANCE THE WORLD WAS CREATED? GOD IS EVIDENT BY THIS ORANGE. The reason was that this orange was one of the juiciest, sweetest and yummiest orange I have ever tasted.
One of my weaknesses is that I can’t contain my emotions; you can see anger, sadness and happiness on my face. I try to work on this, but this was one moment when I was not ashamed to be that evident. God’s power was testified in my orange and it told of his beauty and majesty. The world wanted me to believe that we are here by evolution and things just spontaneously appeared without a plan but this orange told me different. It told me that God had a reason and a plan and this world was created by love. How can this orange be so sweet without God’s love?

For God so loved the world, that he gave…the seed-bearing plants throughout the earth and all the fruit trees for your food. (John 3:16, Gen1:29)

The Jonah in me...

One night after wondering what to read, I decided to read the book of Jonah. I don’t know why I felt pulled to it, but I decided to heed the desire and do it. I love the
bible because it tells of the character of God. Here is what I learnt from the book of Jonah; I learnt of myself... the Jonah in me


Jon 1:3
But Jonah rose up to flee unto Tarshish from the presence of the LORD, and went down to Joppa; and he found a ship going to Tarshish: so he paid the fare thereof, and went down into it, to go with them unto Tarshish from the presence of the LORD.

I think of how many times knowing what was desired of me, purposely gone the opposite way. I look at Jonah’s story and say, “if God ever called me to do something, I would run to it immediately. But do I need to physically hear God’s voice to have this passion?. Knowing the word of God is hearing the word of God and we should be quick to do everything the bible states.

Jon 1:8
Then said they unto him, Tell us, we pray thee, for whose cause this evil [is] upon us; What [is] thine occupation? and whence comest thou? what [is] thy country? and of what people [art] thou?

Jon 1:9
And he said unto them, I [am] an Hebrew; and I fear the LORD, the God of heaven, which hath made the sea and the dry [land].

Jonah knowing fully well that he was disobeying the word of God was still bold enough to say that he was a worshipper of the living God. It reminds me of how at times I act “holier than thou” while still struggling with my own sin. Every time I see a unsaved person sin and I shake my head in contempt; while forgetting the mercy I was so freely granted, and the sins I am still struggling with; at these times, I act like Jonah… saying one thing while living another. God please give me the spirit of humility and compassion to my fellow man.

Jon 1:12
And he said unto them, Take me up, and cast me forth into the sea; so shall the sea be calm unto you: for I know that for my sake this great tempest [is] upon you.

How many times are we in the wilderness and actually admit or acknowledge that the wilderness was caused by us. We are so quick to lament and ask God “Why are you doing this to me” but if we sit still in quietness, we might see that some wildernesses are of our own creation.

Jon 1:16
Then the men feared the LORD exceedingly, and offered a sacrifice unto the LORD, and made vows.

From the time we admit the Lord Jesus as our savior, we have people watching us. At the scariest time of Jonah’s life, he had people watching him and it was the way he conducted himself in this “wilderness” that made the other men, “fear the lord, offer sacrifices and make vows”. It should be our goal to always remember that we represent God in every moment of time; both highs and lows.

Jon 3:2
Arise, go unto Nineveh, that great city, and preach unto it the preaching that I bid thee.


Like the bible says, there is absolutely nothing that can separate us from the love of God It was a thing of great beauty to see that God is a God of second chances. Here in the third chapter after the whole issue with Jonah running, the boat and the whale, God still gave Jonah another chance to do what he originally requested him to do. This to me was an act of forgiveness and of love. Obeying God this time forever marks Jonah’s name in the book of the bible; and because he now chose to obey, he is recorded forever in the book of life. God didn’t need him to go; God could have raised another man to take Jonah’s place but it pleased God to “go” after Jonah to call him back into God’s presence because he is a loving God. Even when Jonah was in the belly of the whale, God was with him, listening to his prayers.


I wonder if I will ever be able to fully comprehend how much my God loves me...


...musings from atop the potter's wheel

Look not unto man…

Look not unto man…

Psalm 121 vs 1
I will lift up my eyes to the hills-- From whence comes my help?

The beauty of hindsight is that it lets you look back and learn from things you previously overlooked. It has been a while since I made the best decision of my life- to give my life to Jesus; and lately I find myself looking back at my redemption story….looking and finding things I failed to see while I was going through it.

All those who are close to me and know of my salvation knows that it was a time of intense pain. It was a period in time that I thought I would never get through…The emotional pain I was going through was what laid me down sleep at night, and the first thing that woke me up in the morning. In my head I was saying “yes Lord, do as you please” but physically I was saying “what can I do to get out of this…” I really didn’t care what God was teaching or trying to tell me, all I knew was that unless it was pleasant, the message wasn’t for me.
So in my pride and stubbornness, I started looking for shortcuts through my trial. I went from pastor, to reverend, to father, to priest… anyone who could say the right thing, pray the right prayer or show me the scripture that would stop the pain. Unfortunately (but now I see fortunately), no one had any answers or quick healing schemes for me.

It took me almost 2 years to realize why my shortcuts weren’t working; it wasn’t working because I was looking unto man…

I was the silly daughter of Israel who Prophet Isaiah was describing when he said
Isa 31:1
¶ Woe to them that go down to Egypt for help; and stay on horses, and trust in chariots, because they are many; and in horsemen, because they are very strong; but they look not unto the Holy One of Israel, neither seek the LORD!
I had gone down to Egypt to escape my pain without given thought to my creator or the reasons why I was in this trial….God wanted me to lift my eyes unto him because he was where it all began. He was the one who had come down from his throne of grace to save me and he wanted me to know that he was enough.

Psalm 73:25 Who have I in heaven but thee? and there is none upon earth that I desire beside thee

God brought me to the very end of myself, and it was here, where I ended, that he began! Freedom, salvation and love!

…musings from atop the potter’s wheel